Obnoxious pet peeve

So I have what some people think is an odd pet peeve but truly lots of people have this particular one. HEAVY BREATHERS! I personally cannot stand to even be in the same room as a heavy breather. Now I'm not entirely sure where this came from but I know it bugs the shit out of me. If I can hear your breathing you are either to close or you've go some type of breathing problem. I don't want to hear someone else breath. Hell I don't even want to hear myself breath, which by the way I don't.... I happen to be a very quite breather. I truly think there is no quicker way to piss me of then to breath heavy while in the same general area of me. At work we recently hired this high- schooler and he happen's to be one of the loudest breather's I know... and go figure I am the one he is to answer to. Boy I think this was a co-worker relation made in HELL! For a while there he was not coming to work due to school and finals which was quite delightful. I did not know when he would return but today..... my last day before inventory hell he show's up. He cannot just sit over on the other side of the building and do what I asked him to... no he has to come over about every ten minutes and drive me just a little more bat shit crazy. 

The other day at home my boyfriend was doing this whole breath heavy thing thinking it would be funny to get a reaction out of me.... boy he did not know what he had coming. Needless to say I'm not sure he will be doing that again anytime soon. Its just ungodly annoying. If you have a pet peeve feel free to share it...... rant over!

A little of this, a little of that

I lost my mother when I was 11 months old, on the same day I got a baby brother. I think this has greatly shaped who I am today. Growing up was rough but I made it threw all the challenges that life threw at me. 

I don't think that I am the most caring, loving or sympathetic person; but if anything I am protective and loyal. It's like that song Angel eyes by love and theft. She's got a little bit of DEVIL in those angel eyes. Well I feel like I relate tho this song very well. 

Growing up I was in contact with my mother's side of the family, seeing them often. They all saw my father as the rebel out law that he is, Hunting (some legal some not), Tattoos, smoked pot, grew pot, drank, and much more. The day I turned 20 years old I went to a tattoo shop with my boyfriend at the time and got my very first tattoo. I was already the black sheep of the family so what could it hurt right. My tattoo was in memory of my mother, go figure they all loved it. Since then I have gotten more tattoos, and get looked down upon more then ever. The only problem is I really don't care what they think of me, not that that is a problem in my eyes. I'm just not girly enough for them. I would go ahead and tell you I suppose I know why but I don't need to.... I actually know why. I'm a tomboy always have been and always will be. I hunt, fish, love to get in some mud and go mudding, I don't wear my hair down or makeup every day, and I don't mind getting dirty or swearing like a pirate. I am who I am, I wont let any of them change me; I'm not going to wear girly clothes all the time.... I see nothing wrong with jeans and a t. I find it ridiculous that you need to look like a "proper" woman  ALL THE TIME!!!! All I have to say for myself is I am my father's child. I have his attitude and act just like him in a lot of ways. 

I get lectured about my tattoo's all the time from family but that is not going to stop me from getting more. I'm hoping this weekend I can make it down to my tattoo guy's shop to have him look at a drawing and fix it up for me. Soon I will have my 5th tattoo, I hope to have it by the end of summer. 

So just to throw in a little blurb about yesterday. I was told at work that I must choose working full time there or walking out the door. This is all after they told me that they were considering my position for part time and I had gone out and found another part time job. Being completely frustrated with my job I thought about just walking then and there. But of course I'm one of those people who have a head on their shoulder and know that bills need to be paid and I cannot live off a part time job. I just got a Jeep, and a Camper and those need to come first.... simply because I love jeeps and camping and I don't want to ruin my credit or have my "toys" taken away from me. 

Morning Troubles

Well how do I begin..... I got up around 3:30 this morning which was completely ridiculous! I'm not sure why I wake up at these absurd times, but I do. I let Jep out and while doing so I checked my phone.... it's just habit to check my phone when I'm awake. I had a message from my older brother's friend. He had told me that my younger step brother had texted him looking for a ride and that he knew where he was. Boy how exciting.... normally I wouldn't give 2 shits about where the kid was but this morning was different. My younger step brother has been on the run from the cops for quite some time now. Me not wanting him to break into my home am all for putting his ass in jail. He has stolen one to many times! 

I have been on and off the phone with the state police all morning, I guess the vehicle that my step brother stole the other night has been found in a parking lot. It also was confirmed that someone was on the back road which we thought last night. I have given the officer's all the information that I know. It's been quite the exciting morning.... I herd he stole a jeep and that was the last straw, he was seen on our road and I am not taking any chances with that kid. So I called the cops on him, he need's to get what he deserves. Especially after he stole from my dad.... he got one of my dad's business checkbooks and ended up getting quite the chunk of change out of the account. So they called the cops on him, and told him they were shutting his phone off. He told his mother that he wish's he had taken more money to make it worth it. That really pissed me off because he's a little shit head and can't be respectful of his own parents. 

We are trying to find the kid now but it's a bit harder than you'd think. I'll give it to the kid he can hid well! This is my life.... hopefully not for long though. I hope to move soon and get away from all this craziness, let someone else deal with it.

Boyfriend troubles

Well the night started off a little wacky, I took jep to the vets, and he was a complete mainic. He wouldn't listen at all and was completely rediculous while in the vets office. It was just the trip from hell.

Speeking of hell; I feel as though my relationship is going to hell. Tonight my boyfriend tells me he keeps his mouth shut so that I don't get mad due to my short temper. Of course this pisses me off because it makes me wonder what I've done to make him mad that he has neglected to tell me. Its so frusterating being in a relationship and not talking to one another. I mean arnt you suppose to talk about these things in a relationship.  Not necessarily being an ass hole about it but at least telling one another when something is bothering. 
Then he tells me he kept his mouth shut over the weekend. I thought we had one of the best weekends ever but I guess I was wrong.  Then I asked what he ment by that and it turned into a very silent vehicle ride home.

Why is it that relationships are so hard. Apparently loving one another means nothing if you cannot get along. I loathe feeling like I did when I was a child, usless and non existent.  Feeling insignificant is extremely irritating.

Now that, that is out of my system I think its time for bed.

Absurd Family Relations?!

So here's a little family rant..... 

      I have 3 brother's as much as I don't like to acknowledge one of them as a sibling they still are. Two of them are very successful, in the United States Marine Corps. The other one however boy would I like to beat him. He's a little shit head. He steals, lies, and breaks the law all the time. I mean seriously how is it three out of us four kids turned out ok?! Obviously something went seriously wrong here. My youngest brother (actually he's a step brother) is currently still on the run from the police. Well go figure he's not smart enough to turn himself in, I figure he just want's free food, cable and a place to stay for a while. Why else would he be so stupid. It would be nice to see him behind bars, yes I do mean that. He has screwed up to many times.... If the courts don't do something soon he may end up killing someone with his childish ways. 

As for my father, well he keeps letting people back into his life that well frankly he shouldn't. My cousin's have almost cost him his job on more that one occasion but he seems to keep letting them come back. Maybe he just doesn't care anymore, he gets all pissed off at them then wham a week later they are back. Now my relation with my father is slowly getting better, its nothing to write home about but we have civil conversations. -----

Minor interjection- At work here we just did a crazy shuffle, it started to sprinkle out and it was announced over the intercom. Everyone slowly got up and started walking to their vehicles..... 2 second's later we hear it's down pouring.....   Now picture 50+ ant's running to avoid drowning in water, well that was us. Everyone had their windows down due to the fact it had been 80 degrees out. Now we are all a little damp and stuck inside for the rest of the afternoon.

---- Now where were we.... oh yes me and my father. Well thing's are turning around but we will never have that lovey father daughter relationship most children have with their fathers. It's been a rough road up till now. For quite some time I always wanted more from my father, that fairy-tale father daughter bond. Needless to say that never happened.... only talking when he wanted something or a computer question arose from his wife. There was not coddling from him, I was just a little person living under his roof, or so it felt. Finally one day I decided enough is enough and stopped talking to him. I no longer go out of my way to talk to him or see him. If he wants to talk I give him that option. My phone is always on and my number is the same as always. 

I'm sure you are all just annoyed by now with my stupid writing's but tough shit. You don't have to read it. On the other hand if you are enjoying it feel free to comment, I will be writing more. This blog thing is kind of cool.

A day of frustration!

Well today just didn't start the way I had anticipated. A quick little disagreement with my boyfriend, about the training skills of our puppy. He chooses one way and I do things a little different. Being the one who has had puppies before I think experience should choose the way of the training but this particular morning that was not the case. After the disagreement things settled down, he headed to work, while I spend a extra few minutes coddling the puppy "Jep".

After I arrived at my grandparents in the morning I just got so down. My grandfather is not doing well and seeing him like this doesn't feel very good. Regardless of my feelings I fixed his pant legs like I have begun doing every morning. Once he was ready to head out for the day my grandmother and I helped him to his truck, making sure he had what he needed. Lunchbox, notebook, ext. He is a very strong man, almost 80 years old and still working 7 days a week. Its probably time for him to slow down a bit but mentioning that to him is like talking to a brick wall..... you will get no where. After he left I chit chatted with my grandmother for a bit talking about jobs and my lack of interest in a job that seems to be becoming a nuance. Soon I should be starting my job with the Postal service.... it truly cannot come soon enough. All of a sudden thing's at work have gotten strange. My boss is acting differently towards me, some of the "higher up's", it has just gotten a little to awkward for my liking.

Work is no easy task today, after arriving, I started working on inventory in shipping.... being that my job is computers this was definitely a nice chance of scenery. Although frustrated I hung in there trying to find the parts that were NOT! in there designated places. I finished only to find out that most of the parts I was looking for were no value and wasted my time looking for them. Welcome to the world of frustration! After finally getting back to my office my phone is ringing, after seeing who was calling me I did NOT want to answer the phone but being the only IT person in the building today I was obligated to. Someone once again forgot their e-mail pass word. You use it every freaking day and cant remember it.... seriously right the damn thing down!!!  After revealing to the co- worker what their password was, I got off the phone. Of course there was yet AGAIN another problem, so they call me immediately back. I answer their next problem with ease and again we hang up. Mean while I am trying to talk to another co worker answering their question when my phone rings for a third time. By now I am fed up with the first co-worker so I have a little irritation in my voice. I quickly get her off the phone and go over to just fix the problem so the phone calls will come to a screeching hault.... I hope.

Enough about the day lets move on to bigger issues. It is as if my life is in shambles. My boyfriend has just gotten back to work and we are still struggling with bills. This is just ABSURD I have never had this many problems with bills before in my life. I have been seeing a councilor to try and get my anger issues under control with the help of some medication aka (Happy Pills) but the new ones just don't seem to be working. I told my boyfriend last night that the thought of having a child has popped into my mind over the weekend. Knowing he doesn't want a child I wasn't sure how he would take the news. We surprisingly did not argue but simply dropped the subject. Sure it will come up again many times but easing into it may be the best way to hand it, especially due to our financial status. We just got a puppy and he is a handful at the moment, he is a wonderful dog but it seems to be a bit more of a challenge than I remember house breaking him.

My day is not over yet but that is all I have to say for now.